i am yearning for a family photo session, just simply us together using the tripod, it just hasn't come to fruition. i am still amazed when all five of us make it out of the house properly clothed and fed. i think this is one of the first photo of scout and i. it's so sad, i know, but michael's not so good about capturing me and the opportunities when i am actually showered and feeling up to it are few. this photo is very real life and leaves me wanting more of him and i, and the boys. he looks so tiny curled up on my body and i know oh how quickly that passes.
last night michael and i had our first movie night since the birth. he rented "jeff who lives at home"...so good. it's sort of our tradition to watch comedy skits after a film, and last night was some lisa lampanelli...i laughed my ass off. even scout joined in with smiles and coos just from looking up at me while he had his late night feed...it was sort of more then awesome. it felt good, to laugh, after a few intense days and weeks adjusting with the older boys. it has taken me some time to step back into their world.
i guess what i am saying is, i am starting to feel more like i am coming back to the real world. very slowly though, cause i am still holding on tight to that whimsical haze that comes along with having a baby and hoping to hold onto a tiny bit of it forever.